Apps make me feel dysphoric and pathetic

and it’s not that I’m afraid to make the first move, I’m not, but whenever I do make the first move they inevitably lose interest 🫩 or they don’t get back to me at all

I can’t stop getting straight men and lesbians in my DMs. like, if i dont go out of my way to shoot my shot and just cater this to myself, it’s mostly straight men in my DMs, but that makes sense because i think they just hit on anyone or anything, man or woman, especially on a app like Taimi

ive made most progress on tinder, but its just started recommending me people millions of miles away from me. And I wont lie dude it hurts to keep being rejected by the people I do want; then some lesbian who isnt even in my state is in my DMs.

I get I can’t generalize, but also ngl the kinds of lesbians here who hit on ftms here are people I’m just not attracted to. I’d maybe swallow my dysphoria if they were at least hot, and I’m sure they’re hot to the people that find them hot. But it’s usually masc4masc and butch women doing this and I’m not trying to be mean when I say this but as a straight man I don’t find that aesthetic attractive at all. Which is also why it baffles me so many hetero men hit on me, like ? I know you’re not actually attracted to this?

idk man on her I had this lesbian just shoot her shot at me even though she was way too old for me, I’m trans, and she didn’t want me smoking weed and it’s like. Do you really think you’re all that and a bag of chips? That damn important? That you’re so hot apparently I should just stop smoking weed and identify as a woman for ur comfort? As if lol

like; it’s just WE ARENT FUCKING COMPATIBLE IN ANY WAY? AND YOURE CLEARLY AWARE OF THIS?

just, it seems like this, I can’t get any of the bi girls I hit on but I get all these like butch women and unicorn hunters. again I’m making the first move and putting myself out there so I can’t even just be like ‘no shit if you sit and wait you only get weirdos’ I never thought I was super hot or anything but it’s just. God I can tell when someone likes my profile and it’s clear they want me to supress my transness for them and they won’t even be cute 😭 I would maybe go out with a lesbian maybe causally if she was hot and we clicked but, again its usually masc women pulling this shit on me and I’m just not into masculinity. I just don’t get what they think is going to happen? My own family couldn’t make me be a lesbian, why would some random ass woman on an app make me change my mind?