I feel crazy for what’s happening in my relationship

I(23M) feel crazy for so many different reasons and I don’t know if I should let go of it. My gf(24F) of 2 years is waiting for marriage from Christian beliefs but is willing to do oral to each other which is fine with me. She is more recently over my house since she got a new car. We have stayed together recently for 20 days and only did it 2-3 times. She is always tired and busy but never admits when she is tired and always tries to plan things after her busy time only for her to be done after 6 hours.

I feel crazy because of 1 the lack of sex and how she is content with it. I am perfectly fine with what we do now I just wished we did it more but she said in her own words that she feels we do it a lot already. 2 she is always saying she is not tired but then proceeds to fall asleep specifically ONLY WITH THINGS I WANT TO DO. If there is a show or activity she wants to do she’ll be wide awake and also refuses for sexual things to happen during it which is fine, but for my things she will fall asleep, lose interest, or try to start some sexual thing which then makes her sleepy after so we never watch/do the show/activity. 3 it dosent feel like she wants me, she only wants kisses and cuddles and hugs but nothing sexual. I’m a problem if i refuse to give those things but she isn’t a problem!! 4. She believes everything is fine when it’s not, I’m not happy with how unfair the relationship is and I REFUSE to force her to do anything she doesn’t want to do which includes the oral sex, if she is not in the mood I would rather not because I would prefer mutual desire to do it. That’s not right to make or coerce your partner to do things they don’t want to do. However I hate the times when we do it because she feels obligated and just does it to appease me. She literally hurt me the other day while she was giving me a handjob because she said she was to locked In but it looked like she dozed off but won’t admit it. After that she didn’t even stick around for aftercare she just left.

Outside of these things of course she is busy and I will not knock that but I wish she could manage her time better or be more honest with what she can and can’t do because it’s a lot of fun to hang out with her when we get to. This whole thing is honestly making me crazy for thinking it’s a problem when she acts like it isn’t. In regards to me wanting it more I can just help myself out and do it myself but because she is over all the time I don’t have much privacy and being able to relieve the tension and frustration on my own. I feel so lonely and bad when I do probably because I should just wait on her to be ready but that could be who knows when. It doesn’t help she always sleeps naked next to each other so it’s always in my face.

I don’t know if ima get shit for posting this but idc it helps to get all this out my head since I don’t believe I have anyone to really talk to about it.