Mixing love and lust on my wife

I'm slowly learning to embrace this side of me. Still.

I've been having this growing urge of having my wife noticed on how hot and sexy she is for a long time now. It never ends up wanting to have her getting intimate with other people, I think I would not even like that, except a few rare times I've used straight up cuckold scenes to jerk off I've always had more pleasure taking my time fantasizing over her being...seen just the way I saw her. Not by anyone too, only strangers far far away like in some exotic vacation beach or restaurants, having her wearing the most skimpy bikini she had or a tight dress to highlight the whole snack. That feeling of safety must play a big role in my mind. Also I'm sure her wish to always want to be a "good" lady and even more appear like one to everyone would somehow play a mind trick on herself when she feels the most safe... "We're on vacation" just started doing wonders.... And I think she's been realizing something.... Never even had to tell her straight forward, Never had the guts for fear of being judged badly....I never thought she would ever agree on not wearing bras with the excuse of having small breasts...or wearing g strings under her loose skirts outside on hot summer nights, enhancing those cheeks and legs by wearing dark stockings and heels to lift those wonderful big ass to make an even stronger contrast with her petite figure...

I don't know if I'm going crazy or something but something she said one night during sex... I think she might have realized for good that I would have actually enjoyed having her like that... right in front of other people:

"So that everyone could see those?"

The next month I had to book a trip for us only.

Which led to a few times in a row now where I've had the pleasure of having some of the most intense looks I ever noticed strangers have over my own sexy wife.

Feels a bit wrong, sounds a bit weird. It's not always enjoyable to realize to have these kinks. But that feeling right there is addicting like any joint. Just free.

I just needed to confess that.