idk what to do anymore

ranting :(( so i joined btech in 2025 and now i am in my second year but the thing is it is soo hard for me to understand coding like i can understand maybe if u spoon feed me but i am not like a fast learner in coding the thing is i have like 8+cgpa only because i fucked core subjects like oodp in first year and now in second year there are a lot of coding subjects especially now i am in my 3rd sem and we have dsa this sem bro wtf is even that like full of coding omg and pointers my ass i cant understand any of it ngl bro i really dk why i even joined btech atp like i dont have any right answer like bro ngl idk all of the other degrees exist except btech or mbbs like i didnt get the light on it like idk there are a lot more majors to choose from like idk we have to write these exams to get into them and yk when i realised everything, lol right after the dates of their exams ended bro i dont get it like why didnt my parents or like in my college tell me that i can also do other majors except btech and mbbs like i just dont know like bro idk something like NID or NIFT exists okay omfg like why did i choose btech i think i just got influenced to joining btech cause everyone around me is doing btech bro like wtf and btech cse that too bro like whenever i see code bro like its just omg not my thing i feel like it is just sooo hardddd for me to learn and understand it like okay basics are okay i can understand them but then i cant solve problems its just not my thing omg i regret soo much joining btech cse like now i am realising this is not really my thing but the sad part is i cant go back now i just have to deal with this shit and get done with it but idk how to practice and where to start and what to read there are like soo many resources lowk it would be really nice if someone is there to spoon feed me ngl and also this btech bro like i dont have a close friends circle like okay when i was in school till 6th grade i had a close friend circle but then from 7th grade i didnt really have a close friend circle i have this one friend but like i think her as my bestie but ngl she is not really my bestie now she is just there but idts she thinks me as her bestie cause she has a lot of friends as her close friends other than me i mean im not really jealous or anything but good for her tho but on the other hand me bro i dont have any close friend circle like yk i see some of my other friends and their gang type shit like they always hangout together and stuff like they are always there for each other yk to lean on and stuff but me no i have no one like that but there is this one human i do have is my bf he is really an amazing person i consider him as my bestie but other than him i dont really have anyone and also my bf and me we r in ldr so yea its just online everything and yea he is my bestie but yk i also want a friend group like really close friends who shares everything be there for each other yk just like a close friend group who does everything together and stuff because i am really tired of being alone like its all lonely and then this btech shit bro just kill me atp im just surviving bro idk how im gonna even pass 3rd sem imma cry like its all downhill now and now guess what my bf got detained like literally like bro is in 3rd year diploma and now he got detained cause he was having low attendance yea he doesnt go to college bro like hes gonna have end sems next month and now he got detained like yk im really sad like yall dk like wtf omg and bro is not sure whether he is gonna get hall ticket or not for exams imma cry pls idk why he is chill like that but idk i think hes gonna figure it out but then again im like not okay i need someone yea im desperate im just getting fomo okay like im tired of being alone like bro yea pls help idk i dont like btech its just not for me and yk of my classmates they idk how they study they study study always and get 9+cgpa bro like crazy right but im not like them ik im sad. idk what im gonna do i feel overwhelmed, lonely and like I made a huge mistake choosing this degree, and I just want to know if I'm actually screwed or if there's still some way for me to figure this shit out.

sry yall i just want to let it all out.