Just saw a post of someone saying “lowkey wanna go through a breakup to experience OR songs...” and it made me so furious.

Because WDYM you wanna go through a damn breakup? Do you even think with your brain when you type that? I literally wish I didn’t relate to any songs of Olivia, I wish I never experienced any damn breakup and didn’t cry all the time while listening to songs like “Begged”, “The Grudge”, “Cigarette Smoke”, “What’s Wrong With Me”, “Traitor”, “The Cure” etc.

Going through breakup is such an immense pain and it’s something I would hardly wish on my enemies. I loved someone deeply. I had the realest feelings for him and he hurt me more than anyone else ever did. He made me feel unlikable, question my worth, feel as if I was hard to love and couldn’t compete with no one because I would never be the optimal choice. I literally begged him to talk to me, begged him to stop hurting me. I received so many traumas, so much pain just because I loved him and seeing some Redditor say “wish I could experience Olivia’s songs” makes me incredibly angry and sad.