Move on kara do koi

So dosto, I was in a relationship for 518 days. She was one of the most beautiful things that happened to me, and the ending was worse than I could have ever imagined.

Basically, I was very introverted and shy in college. I didn’t talk much during my initial two years. Then I met one of my classmates. She was beautiful, smart, basically perfect thii.

Sab sahi chal raha tha. Then, in April, I found out that she had been in a long-distance relationship for the past 5 years. Ye bhi mujhe uske ex se pata chala. Btw, now he is her current boyfriend.
When I found out, I was fine. Thik hai, sabka past hota hai. She said ki, “Main tumhare saath hi rehna chahti hoon,” and all that.

Then I joined a new job. Phir maine woh job chhod di because I thought maybe she needed more time.
Then, on one random day in July, she came to me and said, “I don’t want a relationship, neither with you nor with him.”
After a few minutes,

I randomly checked her phone. Guess what? Usne kabhi usse breakup kiya hi nahi tha.
I got panic attacks and all. Then I left the city, left the job, left the friends I loved the most, got hospitalised, and eventually moved to Bengaluru from Delhi.
It’s been 2 months now. She contacted me and said ki, “Dost reh sakte ho?”
I said, “Chalega,” because idk man, I’m just too dumb in love. Agar uske around rehna bhi pade, toh bhi chalega.
So yeah, yahan aake bhi move on nahi ho rha.