Sometimes I feel like ghosting my therapist

I do know I have to go to therapy to get better, but lately I’ve felt kinda disconnected about it. I have an issue with masking in therapy, which is bad and I’m working on it, and probably something I should bring up with my therapist. However, I usually haven’t felt this disconnected in a while. Maybe it’s because we had such a long break or something, but I feel that all the things she tells me are things I could tell myself.
Sometimes, even with her I feel like she might be secretly annoyed by me or hate me, which is quite exhausting, but I just feel off now. I have no motivation to go to therapy and I don’t really feel like replying to her messages.