The Realization That There is No Satisfying Ending is Painful

3 weeks into no contact after 3.5 years

I want her to express sadness, regret, and remorse. How I want dumpers remorse to wash over her. Or just know that she is realizes she lost an amazing guy.

But the sad thing I’ve come to, what will that accomplish? What satisfaction can she give me at this point? The relationship is over, she ended it and turned me into a stranger. I keep feeling hope that one day, she will validate this pain I feel, but I’m coming to the painful realization that this is probably all there is to our story. In my gut, I know another chance is very unlikely, so the hope that will ever have access to her feelings or internal world is dying. It’s painful.