30s/F/UAE

Hi,

For me Reddit is a weird place but that is exactly why I think I might find what I am looking for.

I am in my early thirties ,divorced muslim woman. I didn't encounter what I am looking for in my culture, I prefer to DM where I am from.

So I am caramel skin tone, 80k (usually I am 75) can't remember my highet (158/160) a calm, shy, spontaneous, introvert, into art and movies, currently freelancing, (unemployed), I don't think I want kids anymore, so if you infertile it's perfect or you already have kids, I have 1, I want to have a warm, cozy, loving life in the long run but I am old enough to know that life has its own plan, so for now I don't want to overthink.

I am looking for a stable, halal, emotionally fulfilling, relationship. I have been taking care of others for the last years and I just feel I want a place to release my tension. Responsibility and life can be really tough on a soft woman 😂.

I am looking for a best friend and a lover who can support me emotionally and physically while I am taking care of my life and helping myself stand on my feet.

Anyways, what I am looking for is a strong,god fearing, caring, emotionally available, intelligent,controlling, honest, masculine,nerdy, somewhat handsome,confident, and stable man, ready to commit, even if for a period of time with agreement 2-3 years. Most know what he wants.

The thing is if I wasn't a Muslim I don't think I will remarry in the near future, but I am god fearing woman looking for the same.

The weird part, I want to try some new stuff, 50 shades like, I had this urge for years to be wh ipp ed and pun ish ed and I googled there are people who enjoy to give and others receive. I don't want a man who only likes it because I want to.

I can't stop thinking about this no matter what I do, I need this part fulfilled so I can move on if you get me.

Deal breakers:

Dishonesty

Polygamy

Rudeness

Insecure men

Financially unstable

Avoidants

Womenizer

No south Asians please, just a preference.

Don't waste my time, every lie is doomed to be discovered.

So embarrassed I might delete this in the morning.