I’m scared about college

I’m currently a senior in highschool. I really love the theater. I’ve been doing stage management, acting, directing, playwriting, and more for the last few years now. I want to go college to study directing or playwriting but I don’t know where to go.

I’m really scared about college. It’s not just normal fear of change, growing up, and moving on stuff. That’s definitely a big big part but there’s a lot more. I’m scared about my safety and quality of life for a number of reasons.

1. I’m trans (mtf) and I live in the US specifically Florida. So I’m kinda terrified of being in an unsafe environment wherever I go.

2. I’m chronically ill. As a result I’ve been in and out of school forever. I just this year moved over to virtual school with my electives in person.

3. My grades are kinda bad. My GPA is 2.5 and my grades are between Ds, Cs, Fs, and the occasional B

4. I’m also autistic/adhd and have serve anxiety so that doesn’t help which a lot.

I don’t know what to do. I know this post is a little messy but if anyone can offer any help or advice that’d be great. Even just some encouraging words would be a lot right now. I’m considering just taking a gap year to figure everything out but I’m not entirely sure yet.