really exhausted and need a break

i cant really disclose much but im in a group under a certain label
it was really beautiful when i first joined but now its just really exhausting, i mean this is what i always wanted and i love my fans alot but it feels like im constantly being watched and have to be perfect all the time.
my body is always sore because of all the time we have to workout and do practice for like hours only for people to critcise us for the littlest thing ever, ive grown so insecure of my body
i dont know who to talk about this to without being in trouble or getting kicked out. my members are sweet and i love them but i dont wanna bother them because theyre going thru stuff too
i wish i could take a break just so i can rest properly again and to feel human again