I am turning myself into Gollum

You didn’t misread, I am turning myself into Gollum. I think he is really beautiful and sexy and since we are the same mentally and that I love him very much, I need to also look like him physically.

I started to eat less to be skinnier, my bones and especially my spine is starting to show. I take a bad posture to have a bumpy back like he, also started to to plush my hair/body hair (I’m trying to be bald but my hair grow back…)

Also have more things to do but this will costs money if I do it clean from bacteria, like, removes my teeth and kept only 9 like him (removes the exact same teeth he lost), I also wanna cut my ears to make them more pointy and gets scars in my back like his from getting whipped (which I can easily do myself with a knife)

Also gotta go to surgery to make my nose look smaller (only the nose because my eyes are already big and I kinda have the same face shape, and I also very short) and make my eyes blue.

Also don’t need to avoid the sun because I’m already doing it for years (which is why my eyes are more sensitive)

I can’t wait to look like just like my love. I really can’t wait.