Felt embarrassed and somewhat dissatisfied

just now buat sex yg paling vanilla and unsatisfied with a janda. sangat vanilla. the foreplay was good on my part, i did textbook clit rubbing + round massage on vulva+ isap tetek( dia mcm x kasi aku jilat pussy dia) Until aku rasa dia dah cukup lecak. then aku suruh dia bj aku, tapi gigi dia kena konek aku sakit gila… even after aku bagitau bukak mulut luas sikit still dia kena gigi. So i stop altogether, with semi flaccid dick. Then i wanted to proceed with missionary, tapi my dick is still semi flaccid sbb kena gigi dia, aku ckp kat dia "lancapkan aku" . Which the motion should be like milking the cow, tapi dia tarik konek aku mcm tarik tali rafia. Gila.

then aku ckp kat dia, bj i skali lagi. Which she did good this time. Im fully erect so i wanted to fully fuck her. Which after a couple of thrust and not even 1 min. She said i was being too hard and felt pain. which i stop then said my dick is not even that big😭😭 which destroyed me with friendly fire. Habis confidence aku.

then i fuck her a bit, dkt kerusi, i suruh dia tunggang i instead sebab if im being too rough, i want to be considerate and use her pace. So when i let her ride my dick, i kid you not, after 15 times up and down, she said she is tired. Broooooooo. Then changing to another position taking so long. the interval already made my penis flaccid again.

then i try extra simulation. Biasanya kalau i see boobs get slapped it gets me hard so fast. Guess what? She said its too painful and she wanted to have some break.😭😭

Then aku keluarkan moisturizer , aku nk suruh dia lncpkan aku. Dia cakap tak pernah handdddjobbbbb.

at last aku x pancut pun. Malu aku. Rasa x de Maruah aku Sbb x perform.

and she said she never done it handjob or bj before.😭😭😭😭 even with his husband. Why laaaaaa husband dia pun x de foreplay apa, kesian lapulak

Yooooo. rn we are doing sesi feedback and apologizing
but she is very very nice and considerate person. She was understanding.