[M4F] My Rape Fantasies

It's been a few years since I narrowed down what it was I really craved, and my want for it has only grown ever since. My constant need for putting a label onto my desires led me into the world of femdom which in turn helped me narrow down that what I want is not some fun and/or rough BDSM or any femdom-affiliated bedroom life (I mean ideally in a relationship, yeah). What I truly crave is a total loss of control, loss of power, not having a say, having the roles reversed – I wanna be taken, roughly. A lack of relationship and sexual experience at the age of 24 possibly adds to my naivety but could make a case for that making me even more so vulnerable.

An anti-social teen heading into twenties, with his therapist the only person who he can be open and vulnerable with – what happens when it turns out that this year long of continuous sessions was grounds for finding out the weak spots, the trigger points, planting suggestions, and twisting them on the head for him for the therapist’s depravities?

A guy gets dragged to a club by his friends, while not being a fan of clubbing at all. Everyone starts getting drunk or high or busy dancing – and before he knows, the drink at his bar where he was isolated to has been roofied. The eyes open up to the crushing weight of an unknown woman fondling with his body as he struggles to make any sense of things.

One of the players on the college soccer team who is not aware of how much he is lusted upon by the cheerleaders and finds it out the hard way at night in his dorm room.

Maybe a case of academic blackmail, where fighting back means losing the scholarship or even getting kicked out of the university at the hands of a senior professor or maybe even the Dean.

The world around us has evolved now, and the poor guy taking the shortcut through the dark alleyways at night didn’t know that it wasn’t some drug dealers or dangerous men he should’ve been wary of, for he can easily be blindsided and overpowered by a determined woman.

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I know these scenarios and intents behind them all vary highly on the spectrum of reality and fiction, but this is what my mind constantly juggles through. Day in, day out. I can’t knock them out and am better off embracing these fantasies. Odds of any of it happening – next to impossible. But that doesn’t mean a simulation with written exchanges can’t help get there, or maybe just the discussion of intents behind these to help validate them maybe? Finding a counterpart who would love to embrace the opposing role in these fantasies would be the very ideal outcome for now.

But that is a lot of word salad for now. Hope to find someone who has a somewhat liking to this niche.