Sexually abused as a child by my father could this be a reason for my behaviour as an adult

Im 27f I was sexually abused by my father when I was a child, I have had bad mental health going from my late teens to twenties and I think it’s because of what happened when I was younger, but I just need some advice or some sort of awnser im not sure if I will get it but just something to be able to understand better I suppose,
I have let men sleep with me for their own satisfaction even when I wasn’t attracted to them which has led me to feeling very ashamed and guilty about it, it’s like I just went along with it even if I didn’t feel like i wanted too, I have never been able to say no I don’t want to do that and I don’t know why? It’s upsetting as I feel so stupid as some of the people I have let sleep with me had either taken bad drugs or was like 3 times older than me or some was a one time thing, I feel like I have been really vulnerable with men and i hate myself for it I’m just wondering could this be from the childhood sexual abuse? I feel like I have been used my whole life
I’m with someone now and I’m really happy and settled in my relationship we have been together a year and a half and he knows everything because I feel like if I don’t tell him it’s like I’m keeping these things a secret, he is honest to me and loves me for who I am, I just feel like I’m not good enough because of all these things that have happened….and I feel like it makes me weird because what my dad did to me 😣if there is anyone out there that has any understanding or similar story do you have any advice please 🙏

Posted Sep 11, 2026, 3:28 PM UTC

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