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Berryion50

Does this sound like a healthy enviroment to be in?

Opinion / Thoughts

Long story short, in summer I was at my absolute lowest, had a mental health crisis triggered by a drug interaction between SSRI's and alcohol. It was an eye opener, because even whilst sober I'd get very depressive thoughts while on those meds, which made me put 2 and 2 together. So I cold turkey stopped after the "last straw" happened (bad idea btw). It was a very bad situation overall, and I don't blame my ex-friends for getting scared. There is however alot of things I carry deep resentment for, they knew I was struggling, they knew I was on the edge and they added to my suffering by telling uninvolved people about it, labeled it as a behavioral trait instead of what it really was, and overall just making me feel like my life wasnt worth anything. Although the latter might not have been the intention, thats how it felt to me.

They also criticized me for seeking support in other friends before they got the chance to get together and talk about it, the alternative was that I probably wouldn't be here right now. That situation and the following weeks were very bad, thankfully I am back to normal now and have been for a while. Since then I've cut them off completely, blocked them everywhere which helped, but we still live together on the same floor, so every time I leave my apartment theres a fair chance I will encounter them, or see them hanging out in the shared common-area. They also don't like that I use the common area, even though I pay rent aswell. If they are there with my friends, they'd rather if I just don't come inside which I find ridicilous. I almost feel trapped in my own home.

The situation happened in june, so its 3 months ago at this point. We don't talk, and I have no intention of ever talking to them again. Reason being that they chose to paint me as severely mentally ill and chose to see the absolute worst possible interpretation of me instead of hearing me out. I'd rather spend my days alone at this point than spending it with people I hate. I understand they are not mental health professionals, but all they needed to do was be decent friends, I never asked them to be my psychologist or therapist.

Which brings me to my question, is it better if I just move at this point? I am forced to see one of them in my class, but the rest of the group I literally never see at the university, only at this student block. I keep reliving the situation, and their mannerisms towards me is like picking at a wound all over again. I am trying to do better for myself, started therapy recently, I still go on walks although a little less than before because I burnt myself out a bit, but I do go on walks every other day. I am trying to do best by me, and learn to love myself again. I just think this situation is hard to deal with... Sorry if I come across as victim-blaming myself, but this situation has been very hard for me to deal with it, lots of emotions connected to it, and ive been mostly alone trying to deal with it throughout the summer and up until recently

Posted Sep 11, 2026, 3:30 PM UTC

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