It's been 13 days

My dad passed away 13 days ago. He had kidney and heat failure. It's been the longest 2 weeks. I think about all day but I don't cry, I just think. I feel with life constantly moving around me at home with work and kids etc all I do is think but no time for sadness. Maybe that's ok for now. Maybe I'm a monster. I don't know how to navigate my feelings other than to just let myself feel how I feel.