Proud of myself

I did it! I closed the door between my LO and myself. There was always this anxiety just hanging there. And then I started to realize that I suffer more and imagination than in reality. Leaving room to constantly interpret, constantly check messages, wait patiently for availability. It’s embarrassing to present as such a confident person to the outside world, but have this kryptonite. So I finally just said that I appreciate the time together, but this isn’t working for me and I wish you the best. Right now I feel good. I feel proud. I’m partially posting this so that I have something to come back to if I start spiraling. A reminder of how my strength felt. Now I can start to heal and free up emotional energy to spend where it’s wanted. I feel like I reclaimed my power, and I am going to hold onto it for dear life.