Losing Hope

I can’t get ahead. Everything I’ve ever tried has failed. I’m tired of starting over again and again and again and again. This world is designed to kill people like you and me and grind us into dust. I never should have come here. I try to meditate but I’m not getting anywhere. I’ve read a bunch of books but can’t seem to make any changes. I’m not intelligent or wise enough to figure it out. None of my family understands. None of my friends understand. It’s lonely and exhausting.