Empty

I have this pain and emptiness that lingers and never goes away. I have good days, enjoy things, but it’s always there in the background. Today it’s really made itself known. I haven’t had real cravings in a few months, but today I would love to drink. I’m tired of life, I’m tired of fighting every day, life feels like Groundhog Day and I’m exhausted. I hate that I have to live by these fucking rules. I want to fucking drink.