[USA] #KY 20 want to explore sissy lifestyle

im a 20 yo sub twink but recently i have come to the conclusion that i am meant to be a sissy. but honestly, this terrifies me. i don’t have the resources nor the support to do so. which is why im here - im looking for an alpha (preferably more fit) that can help and support me. but i need someone that i can truly believe in and rely on, please don’t contact me if you will ghost after a day or two.

i dont really know anything, i haven’t taken any steps but i figured this would be the best place to get me started and give me a support system.