[M4F] I wish I could "turn off" my ability to cum and edge forever

I know this sounds crazy, but I wish I would have the ability to make it so I couldn't cum (but I could still cum if I REALLY wanted to! lol). Now before it sounds weird, hear me out. I still want to be able to get hard, I want to be able to be horny and turned on ALL the time, but I wish I could turn off cumming like it was a light switch. There is nothing worse than when you reach that point of no return and you have to cum no matter what. Even if the world was ending, your cock knows it couldn't hold back your load. If there was a way to "turn that off", I'd do it in a heart beat.

I don't normally just masturbate anymore, I edge my brains out. Hours and hours go by and I get super close, then back off, rinse and repeat. Even for someone like me who was edging before I even knew what it was, I eventually reach a breaking point. After around 4 hours of constantly teasing myself (or preferably, being teased by someone else), I can't hold it no matter what is going on. That biological drive to finally cum is too strong.

Just think about it: never being able to cum, but still leaking, gooning, edging....UGH, it sounds like fucking heaven. The ability to stay in that heightened sense of sexuality, never having to give it up. That would be pure bliss. Cock hard, leaking precum forever, fuck or being fucked for as long as you wanted. Personally, I don't even feel the best when I cum anymore. I just want to edge. One benefit I've noticed from all the edging is my cock is actually getting thicker over time. I guess your cock is like a muscle and if you keep working it, it will eventually get "stronger". Another good incentive to fight cumming as long as I can.