Anbody else feel like a fish out of the water after cutting off their nfamily?

After decades of being my nfamily’s personal garbage can and nsupply, I cut them all off.

But now, I’m finding it extremely hard to trust anyone now and am just trying to breathe air. I feel like a fish wobbling outside that known pool of water of being my nfamily’s narc supply. Can anyone relate and how do you cope or live now? I’m guessing the lack of safe people is troubling me. How do you cope without any real friends on a deeper level?