I'm feeling a type of way because I'm weak.

I've been having more sex lately. Bottoming. I don't even pay attention to my 5.5" dick.

There was a handsome guy with a nice dick who I used to hook up with. He would only be around around midnight and walk to a parking lot near his place.

We would do it about twice a month. But he always used a fake name and number.

Then I tried to get off sex and into a relationship because I was feeling a bit slutty (he wasn’t the only one, of course).

For a few months he would hit me up and I’d respond that I wasn’t interested because I wanted a relationship. I would never contact him except to reply.

He eventually offered to date me, but I soon realized after one or two hookups that he gave me another fake name. Another fake number. Other evidence: even while we were supposedly dating, he would only respond to anything I wrote him that week right before a meet-up. He’d offer to sleep over the night, then last-minute say he got busy and only wanted to hook up quickly. I was even offering an open relationship for him. But he lied and used me for sex. There are so many more bottoms out there. Sexier ones. Why lie and use me? I confronted him over text, then cut him off for years and blocked him.

Now I happened to see his Instagram and clicked on it. Mistake. He found me and messaged me: “You free?”

Guess what I did? Couldn’t help it. It was the middle of the day and I had nowhere else, so out of desperation I cleaned up my backyard treehouse, put down blankets and sheets and pillows.

I shaved, cleaned, lubed, and invited him over. He drives now.

We met within the hour.

Yep, I missed the taste of that cock. Yep, his nut is in me.

Am I pathetic? Did I do wrong?

29 [m4a] Massapequa - Advice