Straight guy (26M) sucks dick willingly

So I’ll start this off with the fact that this isn’t my first gay experience, it’s the first one I’ve intended to have happen, the first one was when I was a young teenager, now I’m 26

So I got cheated on a few months ago with my girlfriend (23F) and it hit me quite hard. So the last month or so I’ve been trying to find out who I am as a person etc. I started to look into a lot of things, including my sexuality. So I thought ‘what’s the best way to find out?’ Put myself out there..

I made an account on another website and put up a photo of me and asked “who wants their cock sucked by a straight guy?”. It’s safe to say it got a lot of attention, so I picked one and thought “What the hell, might as well.”

I travelled about 30 minutes by car in the middle of the night and followed the instructions by the guy to walk right in and go to the bedroom on the left, this is where I found a man in his 40s, naked on the bed, cock in his hand. I hesitated for a little bit because I wondered if I could actually do this but I did it anyway.

I kneeled down and took his cock (it was probably about 6 inches but it was quite thick), and sucked him off. It was a strange feeling as usually I’m used to getting my dick sucked by girls, but I could feel it was doing something to me, my cock got hard as I sucked this guys dick. Eventually it ended after 15 minutes of me sucking him off, and him dumping his load down my throat. Just like that, I left his house and drove home.

Now I’m even more confused of who I am as a person, but I thought what’s the harm in sharing right?