My heart is just very heavy tonight. I hate my life I hate that I was never given a chance. One parent died during my childhood and the other during my teenage. Ive been ping ponged through random toxic relatives houses since years. On top of all that Im so fucking ugly my whole fucking face is filled with horrific acne since the age of 9. I have so many self esteem issues, zero self confidence, Im not groomed at all my personality is shit. I have zero friends I work the most bottom of the barrel job and I feel like I mentally never grew up past the age of 17. Im about to be 29 next year and Im still at the mercy of others. I don’t have time nor the energy to explain my whole life story I just wanted to vent somewhere. My life is beyond saving. Ive never had anything good in life. Yeah Im not homeless (I could be any day though once my relative decides theyve had enough of me) or limbless or blind or deaf but thats about as good as it gets. Im mentally fucked up though.   
I wish I could donate the rest of my life’s years to someone who actually wants to live. Its being wasted on me. Im a waste of oxygen on this earth. If anyone thinks life can’t be that bad I wish I could show you how bad it can be. Im honestly just gods creation to suffer. Sadistic motherfucker in the clouds. 

Never had a chance