Whenever im in crisis i realise i dont have anyone and it's scary

Im sad today. I feel alienated from my family and I've realised that I truly have nowhere to go if I want to leave.

Getting a job and running away to be alone doesn't feel possible. I'm too dependant. Im realising how scary that really is. I want to be able to do normal things and have a back-up plan if I need one. To work, study, feel myself.

Thanks for listening.