You know your life is absolutely pathetic when you wish you had a job to feel worth something

I feel pathetic every day, for multiple reasons, but one of them that seems to have the easiest fix is the fact I'm unemployed.

for context I'm 18, almost 19, I dropped out of highschool by the end of last year, I had to repeat a few years in middle school previously simply cause I stopped attending classes for reasons, I was always a depressed kid, but I eventually got back on my feet, then I was immediately down again cause I made the stupid decision of dropping out of highschool on my first year as soon I hit 18 years old, now, I'm sure that even if a had graduated highschool I would still be in the same situation as I am right now, just older, but I feel guilty nonetheless, especially since now I'm just a burden to people around me, my mom makes it loud and clear (except when I make myself useful somehow) I've tried several times to get a job but no luck, no drivers license, I'm anxious and shy, so, even if my anxiousness completely disappears while I'm at work, I still act awkward, I've be literally told this by a previous boss but with other words right before being fired after working for a month there, no problem, I understand the reasoning, fair, but it made all I was already insecure about 10 times worse, and now I completely avoid jobs that require direct contact with clients, yet still, somehow, I can't find a job, and it wouldn't be so bad if I didn't feel so guilty and wasn't so depressed to the point I can't even find the motivation to help at home to compensate, I'm just a parasite and I really just want a job, even if I know it won't fix half of what's wrong with me besides unemployment.