I wish i could just look good

Tw for mentions of body issues and dysphoria

I feel like no matter what I do about my appearance I either look ugly or femenine, usually both at the same time. Im a bit heavier, which shockingly helps with passing, but its such a far cry from what most people find attractive in a guy. My face is also really round because im pre t and its always been something ive been insecure about. I just feel like if I lean too far into being masculine I look really basic and people pick on me for it but if I lean to hard into being femenine I just look like a really weird woman. I dont know in theory id love to be alternative in the way I dress but its hard to do when I feel so insecure about my looks. I dont even think my weight is really the issue its mostly my face, which I feel like is worse cause theres not really a way to change it. I just wish i could dress nicely and have a cool style without having to feel like a girl. Men's fashion in general just kind if sucks which I feel like is also a major issue . Im sure once I get further in my transition it'll get better but right now it just sucks.