I want to end it all

hi to the reddit users im bit new but ik abt this stuff im a student studyin in one of indias known to be the worst c,g among students i cant mention but it starts with n , i got 93 % in my tenth cbse boards i am top 20 in my schl in 10th went from there to getting 40 % in this clg not blamin the clg obviously but as a student i wanna just give up why is it always like this not only bt that im a aspirant i have my goals cant mention the stream . see my beautifully messed up clg is like so shitty they wont allow a student to go to home even when they have severe health issues i suffer with anemia ,dizziness many stuff and recently i had a neck sprain so i was writing my exam which is mind u 2 times in a week and saturday is like the week whole syllabus and sunday is like a cummuliative ie from the startin of my grade we have abt 30 chps fr sundays exam and let me say i had again had a sprain and i went to principal and said that i have to go to doc cuz im having a sprain he said u alr went 15 times home since starting i cant send u mind u EVERYTIME I WENT ONLY CUZ OF A HEALTH ISSUES the washrooms u ask THE WORST NOT EVEN A DOG CAN USE IT THERE ARE 3 WESTERN TOILETS ALL OF THEM HAVE BROKEN PIPES NO PROPER CARE THE USED PADS ARE LEFT FOR MONTHS and there is no such thing as cleanliness so as a girl who was in a proper hygiene schl till 6 years of my life i cant adjust like can u give me assurance that i wont get utis and mind u if i need to use the restroom either im holdin it back or like calling my parents and gng to home using it and again cmng back . there are cockroaches,ants,spiders wht ever animal u name u get it . in 3 days MY PHY SIR COMPLETED ONE WHOLE CHP. the chp is 170 PGS when are we supposed to solve the probs when are we able to understand if our parents question them they just shiw the toppers marks and i realised one thing that one of a topper is having the papers weightage leaked TF IS WRNG WITH THIS CLG im just so tired i cant even able to breath ,walk,study every basic thing feels like a accomplishment atp i just want to either leave this clg u may ask then leave and go to some other my grade is almost over by dec and im a cbse student and there are only 2 clgs that offer this facility ie one which im in currently 2 is a clg which is know for doin parties enjoyment i rather focus on my studies i had fever for past 2 weeks getting ivs gng to every doctor i went to ent ,ortho ,neuro,cardio,pediatrics,opthal evry one and my eyes are painin legs are painin i have sacrificed every i loved for this stream i went against my family for this stream and this is gng no where the amount of depression im getting is i cant this is smtg to be asked every student is prob feeling the same and im tired of hiding cant this education system be more uk less stressful