delusional or?

my ex of almost 2 years left me recently because he said he’s no longer interested in me, he fell out of love with me, we’re incompatible, our values don’t align, blah blah blah

i’m hurting a lot, and i wonder what he’s feeling like. he said that we could still be friends, and i am leveraging this opportunity like hell to still keep in contact with him. i know its stupid and i should be in no contact so that i can heal, but it hurts to have nothing more than to have something

we still text and i mainly just send him small messages wishing him good morning or good night, checking if he’s in class (since i do have his schedule), checking if he has eaten, sharing some small facts from time to time about people we both know, etc. obviously he doesn’t sound amused at all and is constantly replying with one-liners, which i understand too, but i clarified if we’re still friends, and he said he’s cool with all this

i don’t know. i feel like i’m being so delusional, hoping in a month’s time he’d come back to me and stupidly i’d take him back in a heartbeat. i’d talk it out and have us start over again. has anyone ever rekindled with their ex after getting dumped?