You dont have to press T

This is going to sound a bit odd, but i just wanted to vent the issues im seeing with deadlock due to a recent event.

I just finished a normal q match and my lane partner and i just straight up did not vibe on both communication and both playstyle. But we both did the stubborn thing of putting our heads down and moving forward, slamming our bodies against our lane.

We lost the the game and lane.

Now here is the issue, I have played 900 hours of pure ranked in this game and wanted to try to use standard for the second time ever to try a hero since they got rid of normal q.

I had no idea what i was doing and my lane mate did understand what they were doing and how to do it with my backup as kelvin.

I will be honest, i did start the flame because i was salty that i couldnt figure out wtf to do and how to be better which was on me. however the salt was thrown back at me which i should have taken in stride but after 45 min i felt like a punching bag.

at the end of the match we lost and honestly, it was a multi-factor loss with me as one of the anchors to that, legit alot was on me.

I was SUPER toxic in the game which is abnormal for me to do, but i wanted to try to rectify the situation during the game.

So, i stopped pressing T and buckled down.

it didnt win us the game but it allowed me for a new experience as a multi-generational pvp gamer because i stopped trying to blame and started to learn.

I honestly felt bad for how i acted and added the salty rando to a VC in steam.

they shared their frustrations and i shared mine in a fantastic manner about the state of normals and how frustrating it could be for a player. which was insanely eye opening about how bad the standard state is. i legit wish i could have done better. but i do feel that normals need a full reword of some kind to allow for people to practice and then play ranked.

that being said. this experience honestly taught me alot about my approach to the game and the issues that people who haven been around the game for a while might have, along with new players.

HEY YOU, im sorry i sucked as kelvin. And thank you for giving me your perspective. you honestly made me check myself and better myself in that post game talk. thank you