My birthday is soon….

Before my trauma, I loved birthdays! I love paddle boarding, I love being near water( and this year…… my heart says “let me go”

Let me drink the day away, let me be alone as I feel alone.

I hurt. Let me drink until I fall asleep, and wake up on a new day, that doesn’t celebrate me. I am broken. Feel worthless, and feel abandoned.

I developed trauma working in ICU during COVID. Why? Believe a life is worth fighting for, but, I don’t feel mine is.

I want to get drunk, and make me pass out until the next day….

I have no life, no purpose, I have been abandoned

Why keep trying?