How to escape toxic,abusive parents

20F , I just want to get away from this house and i know everyone keeps saying u need to get a job or have financial stability well I am not allowed to do that they think I don’t have to earn and stand on my feet since they r providing me , both of them are so orthodox,sexist, and what not, I’ve been facing verbal and physical abuse since I was a child just like most of them and now verbal abuse is getting much worse I can’t even say what she keeps calling me ,all the slurs and body shaming, and how she hates me , in the most cruelest ways possible ,almost everyday and it’s just unbearable to hear such things about yourself over mere things and about physical it’s still kind of there but very rare , being a grown ahh woman I don’t want any of this in my life I have tried fighting and reasoning they have superiority complex and also she def hates me it’s not just the words that came out of her mouth in anger but the actions too like she kind of manifests that when I do get married I find the type of husband and in laws who’ll make me suffer more, they just know materialistic happiness and I don’t want it but they keep bragging about it while mentally abusing me ,there are so many things that I will take to my grave and never forgive not that they feel sorry for anything,and about him he is just tooo backward he just want me to follow his orders and not say a word and whenever I try to reason he has only one thing to say shut up I said what I said that’s it like bro wth and if I try to fight back he totally tries to overpower me by trying to violate things ugh he just wants me to act like a puppet ,also they hates every single one of my friends they made me quit talking to my only 2 hgs too recently and now I can’t stand it anymore cuz one of them is the reason I am not quitting on myself and now I just can’t meet them over some stupid reels they sent me of men I still talk to them secretly but I am not able to meet them I haven’t been out of my room with friends since 2 months I am going mad depressed and all of this is cuz of some mistake I did when I was 17 they say they cant trust me anymore but they never did! How is it reasonable! And Ik it’s just an excuse cuz we have reasoned thru that n they know they can trust me but just won’t accept it cuz they got their reason to do things they always wanted to do .
I can’t bear all this, I desperately want to experience life

Ik if I try to run away they will def do something to bring me back again by pulling all the strings and make my life worse I can’t just sit and wait to get married to some stranger even tho I think that’s the last option I have they aren’t even agreeing on that they want to wait 3 or 4 more years but I am not even able to breathe the same air as them for one more day, I really want to escape and I can’t see any way out!