5 years clean. On the edge of relapsing right now.

I just need someone to know I'm going through this. I can't/won't tell my friends as they'll worry and I refuse to put this on them.

I can't tell my therapist as im worried she might do something.

And the one person I can normally tell, my mum, is the reason about to relapse.

I came out to her as trans last week and she immediately told my dad. My dad who is extremely transphobic. Normally my mum and I are very close and I tell her everything.

And now I'm about to lose 5 years of progress clean because of her.