AITAH for ignoring my friends?

ok so i(15 non-binary) have a friend who ill call esther, me and Esther’s friendship, was genuinely the friendship i cherished the most, i also had a crush on her, but she likes guys,(that’s not very important tho) and then i had another friend who ill call Dee, and she was close to Esther, i also had another friend who ill call Issac and basically because it’s generally how all my old friends used to be, I would generally be like a bit touchy(nothing bad so yh) and she said she didn’t mind it, so she never said she didn’t like it, and yet that was a lie, because Dee got Esther to tell school adults that it made her uncomfortable, and then Isaac tried to tell me last Tuesday morning, so I kind of just snapped and shouted that I was sorry twice before running away literally crying until I got into to my school bathroom.

so now I’ve been ignoring them when possible, like sometimes when I’ve been stressed out in class I’ve been in the library, the.n I’ll go back to class after that, if I see Esther I’ll stay in the library again, then leave once the halls calm down, and now I don’t know what to do, should I stay friends with her and forgive her, or should I just end the friendship?