I just can’t be satisfied by a nice guy… I have to be degraded and humiliated

After being introduced to this kink at 19 by a rl dom, I’ve been seeking it out ever since. I need to be used roughly, humiliated, bruised, degraded. I aspire to be a bred owned piggy one day. I’ve done some pretty pathetic/depraved things over the years out of the desire to fulfill what I believe is my purpose in life. Here’s just a few examples:

Back when Craigslist was more popular I used to post in the personals section, about my humiliation and degradation kink. I met up with one stranger who ended up being married, I still let him take me to his work on a day no one would be there and use me all over the whole office. Then I actually got a response from someone I had hooked up with in high school I always posted anonymously so I realized it was him before he realized it was me. I ended up confessing it was me and we ended up having a wild affair for about a year before his wife caught him.

I used to do my fair share of ❄️ in my early twenties, one time I was so desperate for some cock and some ❄️ I met up with my best friends most awful ex boyfriend and let him and his best friend use me all night long until about 4am. I’ll never tell her but sometimes when we are together I think about me doing that and feel so ashamed, especially because my cunt still gets wet while I’m thinking about it.

I’ve had multiple one night stands, I know so many random men have humiliating videos, pictures, or texts from me that could ruin my life but that all makes me so wet because I secretly hope one day the wrong person does see a video or picture of me being a pathetic cum craving piggy 🐖 so I’m then forced to live the life of a owned pathetic live stock beta piggy