Finding it hard to date after investing in pwbpd .

I want to date but im struggling to connect with people. Im over my ex love interest with bpd and finally seeing it for what it was even if there were some good times. I find it hard to connect with people generally and my pwbpd came to me "naturally"

Cause of growing up with low self esteem I feel like ive always been a target these sorts of people. My ex was the final straw. I like to help people to the point ive never helped myself.