Should i even come out

I dont know if I should come out to my parents. Im not out at school because fuck that. Most people do think im a guy tho because I pass pretty well. Im stealth with teammates. Every romantic partner of mine knows im Trans.

But like my parents? I know that I wont be in danger if I come out to them, I just know that they wont love me anymore.

I already came out to my dad once on my 11th birthday via fucking presentation, and he threatened to slap my from here to Tokyo if I dont stop and I took a shower and sobbed there.

(And he wonders why i wont talk to him about how im doing lmao)

But he basically ignored it. And it hasn't ever been brought up since that night, I opened the closet doors and shut them in my face haha.

Theyre like DL homo&transphobes. My dads like oh they can do what they want, just my kids shouldn't be like that. My mom just says slurs and says that it aint right. Theyre also jehovahs witnesses.

I wont get beat, or kicked out or something. I just won't get anymore love from them. Which is fine because I have known since I was 11 that they wouldn't love me if they actually knew me.

But like on the other hand, if I come out and just show them. Maybe they'll support me like I see parents supporting their child online. Probably will never happen but I can dream.

Because when I first came out to my dad after the whole fiasco, I told him I was going to bed and he said that he loved me. And it felt good to hear that I was still loved by him.

I know that when im older I probably wont talk to them and they wont to me. But I love them, they're my parents. Even if I sort of hate them sometimes for making me feel like shit.