Today I watch mismatched again

And today I felt strange, really strange and it's not like it's my time watching, I've watched it but that it doesn't feel anything I've watched many series,many dramas but I've never felt this way with the characters

I feel like I'm rishi someone who thinks about other first ,love an 60s romance and want a secure future and if I like someone I have my whole future planned with them and only them

And there's namrata who makes me feel like my best friend in real life,my friend also has a secret which she shares with me and only me ,at one time if I meet someone in future maybe I should have told the secret about her but I realised something it's our secret it's her secret and whenever she's comfortable she'll tell everyone about it

But I also related with dimple because I want a secure future but I don't want to be involved in a marriage as I want my future to be settled first

But I also don't like her character that much (it's not like I hate her it's some conflict that I'm fighting with),I am also planning to be a doctor and even if I fail many times I'll not blame anyone like she does and hurts the loved ones but she's not wrong (her app was stolen,her nnit dream was over) but rishi always supports her but she always thinks about her first but it's not wrong to choose career but if she's choosing her career then she have to be straight, why always breaks rishi heart and hurt him

And anmol, it's like me who's hiding me from myself, telling a lie so that I don't have to accept anything it's like if I do then I'll break apart

I don't know it's my feelings so obviously I can't tell anyone ,if I can I wouldn't be here right

I think I don't love mismatched like everyone my feelings for this is different,it makes me feel myself in them