Where do you think this is going?

I (f30) have been with this guy (m30) for almost 2 years.
We were both coming out of serious relationships when we met and wanted nothing more than a sexual relationship.
So we started talking, going over to his house, no feelings, just sex. After about a year we started paying attention to all the feelings building up, the chemistry we have, the strong bond we have, we even became somewhat best friends. We talk to each other all the time, we tell each other almost everything, even doing outdoor activities together and basically together almost all the time.
I approached him during Christmas and told him that I dont want this to continue knowing its a temporary thing, to which he told me that he doesn’t want it to be temporary and he shares the same feelings, but everything stayed the same, And thn after a couple of months I opened the subject again because nothing had changed and we’re still just friends who fuck. but he said that he wants it to be something more hes just taking some time to fix some things (which I didnt understand) but we both agreed that we dont want to stay if this is not something that gonna last.
And what surprises me is how much hes vocal about how much he loves me, and how much he wants this, and how much he cares about me.
And I think we talked about it a third time and the result was mainly the same, nothing changed, we’re still the same. Mind you, have talked about our ideas for weddings, we talked about how our future would be like…
I honestly dont want to open this subject another time and be faced with the same unanswered questions, being stuck in the same loop, not knowing where this is going and not getting a proper answer from him.
At this point I do t believe that hes lying about his feelings, but he’s willing to keep me for as long as I’d stay until I’ve had enough and decide to leave on my own. I dont know but I’m loosing my mind and I really want to have this talk again but I’m dreading the shit out of it.