Does it ever end?

All my life I've been belittled shamed for my body, told I'm stupid with my ADHD. some adults told me they had better reasons to harm themselves when I was a teen. Others told nobody wanted to deal with me and would criticize every single thing I did. I have been groped, bitten teased and sexually harassed by 50% of people in my life (including women coworkers dates) . I have had nurses laugh at me and people tell me I should just get a husband and have a baby and everything will be good.

is there any single human being who does not abuse anyone who is not completely insane and does not harm others any more? I feel like I am losing my mind and told I was depressed and had mental illness because I never worked hard enough. I'm scared I will abuse others due to my anger. I've tried everything and there's never a single break or a calm safe space I can call my own.