Reassurance that it gets better

Can anyone share their stories, or tell me if they’ve ever been able to be stable again?
It’s been reallyyyy bad 😭 I got out of the hospital a few weeks ago but everything is still bad. One of my meds got changed again a couple days ago. And honestly I’m worse rn and I don’t even know what the causing factor is. Just trust me when I say I’m all over the place every single day. Plus delusions & SI. Today and yesterday I’ve been questioning if I should be back in the hospital but it’s so mf boring, I’m just wondering if maybe I should try to tough it out til my next appointment in 2 weeks. I just started lithium 2 days ago so maybe I just need to have time to adjust.
Btw, I’m also new to being bipolar bc it didn’t get bad til this year. I left my job a little over a month ago. I have no idea how I’m ever gonna be a nurse again when I’m unstable like this. (Nursing sucks tho ngl..)
Plus my husband is constantly worrying about me and wanting me to reassure him. It’s literally making it so much worse bc he’s always up my ass and being hyper vigilant of everything I do or say, taking everything personally. Freaking out when I say I want space. It’s literally so annoying. Tbh maybe I’d be better off in the hospital cuz I’d actually be left tf alone.