My mom called me a failure today

I’m 18 years old and have never had a job. I hide my stutter to the best of my ability from everyone around me so few know the true severity of it.

I couldn’t sleep last night and woke up quite late at like 12 maybe 1 pm. My mom came into my room with my older sister and started demeaning me out of nowhere. When I sleep in I guess it reminds her of her true feelings for me. She told me in this very harsh tone that if I didn’t get a job by October 1st she would make my life a lot harder (whatever that means).

She then started comparing me to my uncle (her brother) who lives with us in our guest room because he’s broke pretty much. She starts talking about how if I don’t get a job I’m gonna be just like him and then went on to subtly call me a failure and babble on and on as my sister laughs like the fucking heartless bitch she is.

Later in the day my mom forced me and my siblings to go to confession. I rightfully was very upset after what happened earlier so I was acting cold towards her. And she had the fucking balls to ask over and over why I was acting the way I was.

I hate talking about my stutter with her, but I have multiple times and she always seems to downplay the hell out of it. Sometimes I just wish I could watch her spend one day in my life so she could see how it really is.