i hate my body.

i don't even know if i want to be a girl or a boy, I'm never pretty enough, i try so hard to have clean skin, get a good haircut, dress better, have good hygiene and fix my posture.

but i feel like it's never enough, i see so many beautiful girls (or boys too) everywhere i go, and seeing them makes me feel so bad, people have a group of friends, boyfriends/girlfriends, people who love them and appreciate them, i don't.

I'm exhausted, i hate this body, I'm tired no matter how much i sleep.

i become so depressed every time i see someone that's genuinely gorgeous, i see people like that every single day, a lot of them...

life must be so good for people like that, they like their gender, their body, they have a gf or a bf, a lot of friends, while I'm depressed and alone.

i don't even know if I'll ever actually be an artist or something like that, I'm too depressed to read manga, to draw, or do do any of my hobbies.

please help.

i need someone to hug me, tell me that I'm doing good and that i can rest, and telling me that I'm pretty...

i need someone to cuddle with... I'm so fucking lonely.