Twisted kinks

have been lately into very dark kinks and after i’m horny it really disgusts me sometimes, like a r*pe kink or bladder control or gender traitors and cnc, and positivity any other messed up stuff you can think of. Even a complete pet or slave dynamic, i don’t know what might be the reason for that to turn me on especially that I’m still a virgin. And honestly i dont remember how i started to get into this stuff but suddenly i am. It’s starting to affect me lately and i don’t know how i can stop thinking in that way. Im thinking about it all the time, in both horniness and disgust after that. Has anyone had a similar experience to this or have been through it before like what should i do at this point