Dealing with the past

Hello. I have BPD which I have largely managed to get under control in the past year through a combination of medication and better life choices.

I really hurt some people in the past with my behaviour and am no longer in contact with these people. Even though it's been a couple of years I still feel so awful about how I hurt those around me and struggle to let it live in the past. I find it affects me every single day.

Anyone else feel similar to this and / or have any suggestions 😭