Does anyone else feel like they got screwed over when it comes to expressing themselves during their youth?

I - 23M neurodivergent - keep realizing that I was restricted from exercising biological urges all throughout my youth and now I have no way of sexually expressing myself as an adult. This sub honestly forces me to recognize that "religious freedom" is the normalization of oppression when it comes to youth sexuality in the name of some bullshit and my parents were on the side of the oppressor. California heat should mean nudism should be encouraged, but no.

I was kept from forming outside friends/groups that could've let me open myself up because I had to study-slave away my youth to get to college and "do better" than my parents only for that to become a lie by my senior year because COVID. I had no third place to head off to or try experimenting with my youth. And because I was a victim of "religious freedom", any form of sexuality became "devil play".

And now I have permanent jock itch due to the bum-ass heat and sweat, permanent toenail fungus (from these bum-ass gym classes), and have lost my body metabolism to where I'm permanently skinny fat and any attempt to institute an exercise routine worsens the first two. I just find myself realizing that no one will find themselves getting with me regardless of any self-improvement I could do.