I am nothing

I'm 20 years old and have no perspectives. I feel like such a lowlife when I'm surrounded by successful people, I'm stupid, I can't chose a path for myself. I don't want to end up working a job that makes me feel like less than. It's not that I don't respect people who work them, but I personally really want to feel like I achieved something great.I want to be someone, but I don't know who, but if I decide later, it might be... Too late. Suicide is my way out, it took me a long time but I have finally decided on my method just in case. But oh dear, I hate this method. Nonetheless. I don't want to struggle, I don't want to live a life that I hate. I want to represent something great. If I can't, then I will commit.