When will I stop being so sad?

It’s been two weeks since I found out I lost my baby (at 9 weeks) and one week since my traumatic D&C and I am still SO sad.

This is the loneliest I’ve ever felt. I feel like no one around me understands how much this hurts, how im in AGONY. I’m just expected to be okay. I’m so exhausted pretending to be normal. The two friends I’ve told about the miscarriage haven’t even checked in…my mom aside from asking if I need anything hasn’t asked if I’m okay….and I’m drowning.

I go back to work on Monday and im dreading it. I don’t want to pretend that I care about software, I don’t want to listen to my coworker talk about her baby shower, I don’t even want to answer the question “how are you?” Because the truth is IM UNWELL.

How long did it take you all to feel better? To feel normal? To go a day without sobbing?

I just wish I didn’t feel so alone.